Many changes, some upcoming

Hi Friends,

Sorry that I hadn't updated you in a few weeks. There were many changes, but I didn't have the time or the mind to write.

My 3-week resident volunteer stint with a group of nuns expired (as agreed) over 2 weeks ago. Since then I have been staying basically with a different friend each night. On some nights I had to spend several hours riding the Subway trains, as many homeless people here do. I have utilized this need of mine to visit many friends whom I had not visited in a while, and attended to repairing & cleaning of their computers etc. So, it has been mutually productive. Lately, the sleeping arrangements have become smoother thanks to a couple of friends who have openly welcomed me. Some have done so by overstepping their authority on the spaces that are in their custody. I sure hope & pray that no one would have to lie to help me.

Since doing so would stand in the way of helping the many friends and charities that I wish to help, I have decided not to stay in one place anyway. However, this is not an existence that I'm happily looking forward to. As some of my friends have particular technical needs from me, I plan to spend the next 3 or so weeks helping them.

Afterwards, I hope to resume my fast, possibly as a total "no food-no water" fast. That should bring a quicker temporary resolution to my existence. As a consequence of the fast, or possibly as an alternative, I hope to get hospitalized by saying things (and doing symbolic actions, if necessary) that would facilitate my admission. This I will do not as a protest of any sort, but simply to obtain a more bearable existence. With my present existence, I don't even have an opportunity to get enough rest or sleep. As I don't have the freedom that I seek, I don't wish to even pretend that I'm free. While I'm condemned to live in this country, I'd have a healthier existence institutionalized rather than out in the street.

In respect of an effort by some friend(s) to seek an employment opportunity for me in Sweden, I have finally prepared a draft of my résumé <- It's available here in the Adobe PDF format. I wish them good luck, but doubt if this path would work, particularly since I'm a stateless refugee without a passport, despite some openness in Swedish government in this regard, as reported in Sveriges Radio

As to what the future holds for me, we'll see it then. Thanks to All!

"Unlike the animals, we are blessed -or cursed- with the ability to think about the future and to fear our actions to shaping it. So essential is this to human life, that human beings cannot live without hope, without something to live for, without something to look forward to."
- Mark Searle in "The Spirit of Advent", Assembly, Volume 7:1